Still going strong..

After my last post I was really frustrated and felt like it was all for nothing, and this was impossible. Well I went for a run, got my mind back on track, and I am proud to say I am still going strong with my diet. I am now down to a total of 14.8 pounds lost in 27 days. I feel pretty good about this. I guess I really hoped for more results but I know I just have to work harder to get more results. I can't see a change in my body yet and I think for me that is what is most disappointing.

I use this app on my iPhone to keep track of my weight and how much I have lost. Right now my projected date of reaching my goal is on August 8, 2012. Which means that during the summer I will actually be skinny enough to be able to wear shorts and dresses this summer so I wont have to sweat to death in jeans! This makes me push myself even harder.

I am trying to work up enough courage to post a before picture of myself on here so that it can kind of serve as I have to lose weight cause now everyone knows what I look like kind of deal. As you can see the before picture has not happened yet. I have taken some and they are on my phone but I haven't worked up enough courage yet to actually post them on here. At some point maybe I will do that, maybe within the week. 

I hope everyone had a very blessed holiday. I can't wait to make the year 2012 my year of becoming fit!

Frustration

Feeling a little frustrated and a little defeated today. I know this is going to be a long slow journey but ah the frustration. I lost so much within the first two weeks I was just hoping to see results like that the whole time. Not so much the case. I have lost about a pound in a week. I feel like I must be failing or something. How could I go from losing 6 pounds in one week to 1 pound in a week?

I have been googling and pinteresting things and everything I read is something different. One diet tells me to do this and eat this and then another tells me to not eat that and don't do that. How am I supposed to know what works and what doesn't work? I was doing my own diet, not really concentrating on all the "fad" diets but now I feel like I need to make a change because I am afraid that what I am doing isn't enough.

This has been the first time I really have the mindset that I am going to do this and not give up. All the other times I tried to diet I was just kind of doing it because I wanted to change but just wasn't really willing to change. Now I want to change and I am more than ready to change. I do at least 30 minutes of cardio a day. I then do my ab, leg, butt and arm workouts. I eat yogurt and fruit for breakfast, a small salad for lunch and then I have a very healthy green dinner. What am I doing wrong? Am I not doing enough? Am I just being impatient and need to just continue doing what I am doing and eventually the weight will start to melt away again?

Oh, the frustration.

H20

Seriously, now that I am drinking 8 to 10 bottles of water a day, I just gotta say I spend more time peeing than I do anything. I can't do anything without having to stop and go potty.

That is all for now.

Again??

Here we go again?! Yes, again!! When I say again, what I really mean is for the 100th time. Yes, I am that girl. The girl who is so unhappy with her body but every time she starts a diet she can never finish it. The girl who always finds excuses to not exercise today, or not eat healthy today. The girl who says, "Oh it's Wednesday I'll start my diet tomorrow, or Monday." I can't even begin to actually tell you the amount of diets I have started and never finished, only seen them through for about a week and then give up, tell myself its just to hard and I'll just have to deal with being fat. Well not anymore. I am so tired dealing with being fat. I have finally had enough and now this time I have started a diet and I REFUSE to give up, or quit, or make any excuses. This time I finally feel like I am in the right mindset and I will not let anyone or anything interfere with that.

So I actually started about two weeks ago. So far everything has been going great. Leave it to me to start a diet during the holidays but I figured why keep on packing on the pounds. So far I have lost around 12 pounds and everything has been going great. I still have 121 pounds to lose. I am hoping that by June I can have at least lost 75 pounds. I know its going to be hard and it is going to take a lot of work especially doing it alone, but I am ready to do anything and everything to do it. So please join me on this very long and difficult journey of finding the skinnier me.