Frustration

Feeling a little frustrated and a little defeated today. I know this is going to be a long slow journey but ah the frustration. I lost so much within the first two weeks I was just hoping to see results like that the whole time. Not so much the case. I have lost about a pound in a week. I feel like I must be failing or something. How could I go from losing 6 pounds in one week to 1 pound in a week?

I have been googling and pinteresting things and everything I read is something different. One diet tells me to do this and eat this and then another tells me to not eat that and don't do that. How am I supposed to know what works and what doesn't work? I was doing my own diet, not really concentrating on all the "fad" diets but now I feel like I need to make a change because I am afraid that what I am doing isn't enough.

This has been the first time I really have the mindset that I am going to do this and not give up. All the other times I tried to diet I was just kind of doing it because I wanted to change but just wasn't really willing to change. Now I want to change and I am more than ready to change. I do at least 30 minutes of cardio a day. I then do my ab, leg, butt and arm workouts. I eat yogurt and fruit for breakfast, a small salad for lunch and then I have a very healthy green dinner. What am I doing wrong? Am I not doing enough? Am I just being impatient and need to just continue doing what I am doing and eventually the weight will start to melt away again?

Oh, the frustration.

H20

Seriously, now that I am drinking 8 to 10 bottles of water a day, I just gotta say I spend more time peeing than I do anything. I can't do anything without having to stop and go potty.

That is all for now.

Again??

Here we go again?! Yes, again!! When I say again, what I really mean is for the 100th time. Yes, I am that girl. The girl who is so unhappy with her body but every time she starts a diet she can never finish it. The girl who always finds excuses to not exercise today, or not eat healthy today. The girl who says, "Oh it's Wednesday I'll start my diet tomorrow, or Monday." I can't even begin to actually tell you the amount of diets I have started and never finished, only seen them through for about a week and then give up, tell myself its just to hard and I'll just have to deal with being fat. Well not anymore. I am so tired dealing with being fat. I have finally had enough and now this time I have started a diet and I REFUSE to give up, or quit, or make any excuses. This time I finally feel like I am in the right mindset and I will not let anyone or anything interfere with that.

So I actually started about two weeks ago. So far everything has been going great. Leave it to me to start a diet during the holidays but I figured why keep on packing on the pounds. So far I have lost around 12 pounds and everything has been going great. I still have 121 pounds to lose. I am hoping that by June I can have at least lost 75 pounds. I know its going to be hard and it is going to take a lot of work especially doing it alone, but I am ready to do anything and everything to do it. So please join me on this very long and difficult journey of finding the skinnier me.